Well…. I have officially made it to 12 months of healing. The journey has been a roller coaster. I never imagined I’d come so far so quickly. For anyone just joining my journey, last year I found out that my husband of 10 years was having an emotional affair (and possibly even more) with a woman half his age. I stayed through the lies and deceit. I spent years trying to change myself by taking psychiatric medications, praying, attending individual and group therapies. I did everything I could to save my marriage. But in the end, I had to respect myself and choose my own happiness. So, I asked him to move out. He made no attempts to admit to any wrongdoing or fight for the relationship. Instead, he continued to be disrespectful and act out with anger. During this time, I learned all about Betrayal Trauma and Narcissistic Personality Disorder. I learned the importance of No-Contact during the healing process. I started this blog and an Instagram page in hopes to help others in similar situations gain their strength and independence.
As of today, I have met an amazing Man. He has been my best friend and partner. He has given me faith that there are good Men in this world. My ex is living with the Woman he claimed he was not having an affair with “shocker”. I wish I could say that the hurt isn’t still there. I think anyone who has been made to feel that they are unworthy or less than good enough will have a shock to their self-esteem. But this is something that I am working on. Remembering that I am a beautiful person inside and out and that I have earned every wrinkle, gray hair, and stretchmark. These are my battle scars. My children are happy and healthy and proud of their mom. At the end of the day, I’m able to look myself in the mirror and smile. I’m just a month and a half away from being able to file for divorce. I’m excited about my new life, my new love, and my newfound freedom and purpose in life.
Thanks for everyone who has been following and supporting me. I love you all!!!