September 11th, 2021


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It’s been 13 years since my last tattoo. I’ve always been the type of person to put a lot of thought and research into what I put on my body. I mean, it’s permanent. It can’t just be anything and it has to be unique. So, why today? The truth is, I didn’t choose today. It chose me. I messaged the tattoo artist and this was the first available day they had. I don’t believe in superstitions, I believe in God. What did I get? I got a tattoo of a butterfly. Why? Some say that a butterfly represents transformation and rebirth. That is what I’m doing isn’t, it? Rebuilding myself. Transforming into a new, improved, better version of myself.

During my last therapy session, we discussed how well I’m doing. I’m happy, I’m losing weight, working out, blogging, inspiring other women, developing new and healthy relationships, and advancing in my career. What else could a girl ask for? On the outside, it looks like I’m confident and secure. For the most part, I am, but honestly, most of the confidence and security I feel comes from other people. I could do my best to fill my life with only people that speak life into me and encourage me, but that’s only half the battle. The inner battle of believing in myself is what should count the most.

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So, how does one transition into a butterfly?

  1. Encourage yourself. Tell yourself you’re doing a great job. You got this! You’re a Rock Star.
  2. See your true beauty. Look at yourself in the mirror, take more pictures. Dress up, fix your hair, put on make-up, paint your nails. Do it all, for yourself.
  3. Speak words of affirmations to yourself. Memorize bible verses. Remember how you talk to yourself, is how you will allow someone else talk to you.
  4. Lastly, trust and believe in yourself. Be confident in the decisions that you make.

Published by 12mos2heal

40 year old female sharing her story about betrayal and how to heal and become a happier me.

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